my mom made dresses for me because i looked like a boy

my mom made dresses for me because i looked like a boy

when i was a god damn baby

i’m figuring more shit out about life
i’m figuring more shit out about my life
my mom made me wear those dresses
because i had shorty short strait hair
for a while when i was a baby
my dad probably wanted me to look like a girl, too

but i’m a GRRRRRRRRL
a riot grrl

but when yrr a baby
you just look like a baby
in the face
who cares

my parents took photos of me
when i was a baby
sitting alone on a changing table
up high
weren’t they worried
i would fall off the edge?
apparently not
because one of them made me look and smile
and the other was standing far enough away
with the camera
that any wiggly baby could have fallen to the ground

my dad abused me
my mom neglected me and tried to will me to be a replica of her

but then, my hair came in
and it was curly
and it grew long
and my mother had to do it
not like an African American girl’s or boy’s hair
like a white girl’s hair
but my hair had to be done
regular ass shit
but not everyone gets hit in the head with a brush
by their mom
 

motherhood

motherhood

i have my medical weed card and my name is denise and i live in michigan

i have my medical weed card and my name is denise and i live in michigan