losing power

losing power

losing power
the electricity kind
is a time to share tips
like if you lose power in the winter
your food doesn't have to go to compost
if food is out of temperature for too long
then it goes bad
meaning
if food is warmer than 40 F for longer than four hours
you shouldn't eat it
it's cold enough outside
to store food outdoors
and most produce will be fine outside of this time window
but come on
i gotta read about motherfuckers
throwing out their whole fridge?

losing power
like if you lose power in the winter
you should turn off the water
so it doesn't freeze and
expand
in your copper pipes
and break them

losing power
like if you lose power in the winter
you can still light your gas stove
with fire
and you can still use warm water
in the shower
if your water heater
uses gas

losing power
like if you lose power
during a time when you want to drink a drink made from coffee beans
during a day that ends in y
and you're thankful for your hand grinder
your gas stove
and your aeropress
all analog

losing power
the physical individual identity kind
like if you start using your non-dominant hand
and you start to change
so you keep using your non-dominant hand
and you continue to change
and you have no idea who you are
or who you may become
because there is only now
and you keep using your non-dominant hand
and you continue to change
even though not feeling like yourself
sux major key
but when you're anticipating change
because you're using your left hand on purpose
your discomfort
at not feeling like yourself
is just one more feeling

so you have to keep telling yourself
everythings' fine
it's all going to be fine
discomfort is not bad
discomfort right now is just the feeling of not doing the same thing

just as i was about to say
the music in this not my regular coffee shop
SUX,
bill wither's started singing "lean on me"
so that's cool
i always forget that it's him singing this song
and have to look it up
but it's a song i've been hearing
my whole life

this one time

i wrote a poem about

losing power

and it just so happened

that i've been simultaneously

meditatively

knocking everything

down off of their pedestals

anything i exhalted, worshiped, put up on top

i'm takin it down

and i'm destroying my feelings about it

with a ruthlessness

 

 

 

pep talk

pep talk

death and being alive

death and being alive