2016 was my stoner year

2016 was my stoner year

i want to have a life where i can live in the wilderness in the middle of ypsilanti
i want to have a life where the people in my life love themselves as much as i love myself
i want to have a life where i can travel the world

not so you'll pay me
but just because i can and i want to

i want to have a life where i don't need anything or anyone
so that i can choose and be in charge of how i build my life
i want to be able to choose people and things
i'm on my way there

i feel jealousy and envy from people
i observe jealousy and envy between people
i find it distasteful
i find it unnecessary

i want to live a life where i can be nocturnal in the winter
my work and family life still do not allow for that
i want to live a life where all i do is learn
i want to live a life that is devoid of boredom
my work life still does not allow for that

i want to do whatever the fuck i want every day of my life
my devotion to my children means that i can do that properly

last year, 2016, was my stoner year
i did it pretty good
it was the year that i lost a shitty job before i became a true stoner
it was the year that i learned how to farm as i became a true stoner
i don't smoke weed right now
because my dad taught me his addictive behaviors
and my parents together did not teach me to heal myself

2016 was my stoner year
weed helped me avoid deep depression
for a year
weed is not addictive
but habits are habits, whatever they are
weed enhances shit
it's sacred medicine
i was not utilizing it in a sacred way
i was not utilizing it in a medicinal way
even though it started off that way
2016 was my stoner year
i waited until i was 38 to become a stoner
my first weed was in high school
but i waited until i was 38 to become a stoner
2016 was my heal the shit out of myself year
i used medicinal strains of weed
i noticed the different things they did
2016 was last year

2017 and i'm new
2017 and i love myself more than anyone else
2017 and i'm not a fuckin stoner
december 25, 2016 was the last weed in my air for a while
2017 and i still wish for ways to forget, ways to escape
2017 and i'm healing myself still
2017 and i'm new

 

 

other skills

other skills

this one time, i worked way too hard for the corporate patriarchy

this one time, i worked way too hard for the corporate patriarchy