That's Some Beautiful Art In Detroit

That's Some Beautiful Art In Detroit

i want to do my lunar cycle bleeding
on a bed of green moss
until the blood flows out
and be cared for
while i bleed
it's tiring
it's draining
that's why they tell you in the yoga
to avoid going upside down
while you bleed
it feels better to rest

i want health
i want healthy practices
i want to do things that are not at war with myself
doing battle with myself
is not my favorite pass time
but i do it like it's my full time job
the more layers i pull back and shed
the more i find
it's maddening

i surrender to the universe
that's my message to myself lately

when i was young
like 15
i was encountering
religions and spiritualities different from my catholic and lutheran and atheism
i learned about judaism
a little about islam
read about hinduism and taoism
practiced yoga
so that when i was 18
i could join a women's circle of witches
not like a coven
just a group that you show up to
some of them were in a coven
so it made my training legit
to hang with real live witches
some were dudes, too
and you know what they called themselves?
witches
and it was when i was in college
so new york city
had this shop with magical things and books and candles and things
and a back yard
for witchcraft classes
legit shit
and wiccan and pagan holiday celebrations
i read books as i talked to witches
but i learn lots from books, so i listened to witches and observed witches
asked a few questions of the witches
and then took my books and went on my way
after a year

before that year ended
i did a love spell with a light pink candle and a white candle
from this shop
it was just a wish for love
generic
somebody made it and put their own energy into that candle
and you don't know what that is
and then you bring it into your home
and set your intentions upon it
i didn't know what i was doing
so, since i didn't know what i was doing
a few years later, upon motherhood, 
i purchased a blank journal with a red velvet cover and cork spine
i didn't use it much
i imagined it would be my book of shadows, they call it
my book of wild woman notes
observations about magic, the earth, plants, my body
but i barely used it
i wrote these things down in other places
i wrote, on the inside of the cover, i don't have it anymore
i wrote on the inside of the cover
"An it harm none, do what ye will."
meaning, don't hurt anyone with your magic
witches are ethical bitches
i wrote that in my book
years ago
put that book on a shelf
and then moved it from shelf to box to shelf
a few more times
had more babies
grew them up a little
did a bunch a shit
then got fired
learned about farming
adopted a dog with anxiety issues
who destroyed so many things
that she taught me to let go of my materialism
more
and i was cleaning up my house
and pulled this red velvet cork book of shadows off my shelf
and read the phrase, aloud
"An it harm none, do what ye will."
it was like a veil, one of many, was swept away

what's cool about witchcraft is that
you can be a solitary practitioner
people who do that
wrote books about that
so you can even read somebody else's version
of what you want to do
but you announce yourself a witch
you can be initiated into a coven
you can go that path
but i want solo
so i studied, limited myself, studied some more
and then unleashed myself
what's cool about witchcraft is that
there are many ways to do it
witches honor the earth
and are in awe of the cosmos
i liked neil degrasse tyson's version of that show
the cosmos calendar
that shit was cool
my boys were into it
but only kinda
what's cool about witchcraft
is that you can practice spirituality as yourself
it's freeing
i can do what i want
you don't have to practice it like anyone else
but you're a witch
so you are extra good at bringing things into your life that you need to learn
so if you're not legit
you'll bring stuff into your life to prove it to you
but if you are
you'll already be able to handle it

 

 

 

hermit in public

hermit in public

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