other skills

other skills

privileging talking
use of the voice over all other senses and
ways of communicating
is just emphasizing this one tool
over another
we don't even privilege listening in the same way
sure, there's hearing, and that's cool
but it's really about talking
to/at either way
it's talking
voice

hone the other skills

i am closing doors just as the new ones arrive
it's like in monster's inc
i'm a baby
i don't really see those new doors yet
but i can feel their arrival
it's like i'm triggering
my own little tiny baby triggers
on purpose
i brought these little triggers into my life
to be reminded of experiences
from when i was a little tiny baby
so i've healed all the way back to that?
you've healed all the way back to that
little tiny baby world
i want to heal into that last life
i want to do that

i want to free myself from all that past karma
i want to be free of those binds
i feel them
i want to be in so control of my own mental matter
that i can be born next
knowing 

so i put a pretty big Black Lives Matter sticker
on my no other sticker laptop
and some others on my stuff
shit feels pretty good, different
and you might say, well, denise,
we've had those on our laptops for ages
and i'll say yeah i know, 
but i didn't, so now i do
and shit feels different
so i'm late to the game

when they ask you
in visualization class
never had one
but they ask you in class
to visualize what you want most
happiness
you're supposed to say
but i say freedom
complete freedom
joy comes along with that
i want freedom
and i want to free myself from
my own mental entanglements
they're fucking strong
those goddamn mental entanglements
but i would like to be free of them

you know when they say
that you mirror yourself
in other people
sometimes
that you draw people into your life
and they trigger strong feelings of dislike
that they mirror something
inside you
that you don't like?
you know, 
like they tell you when you read shit on the internet

christ, she goes on for fucking ever

jesus

you guys, i grew up catholic, and lutheran
you guys,
christ
you guys

oh my goddess i'm so white
everyday

 

 

 

Kitchen Work Is Warm Work

Kitchen Work Is Warm Work

2016 was my stoner year

2016 was my stoner year